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is a struggle..every blink of an eye, every single breath you take. I was reading the Bible awhile ago and I happen to pass by Ecclesiasticals and it said something about “The right time”. The right time to laugh, the right time to cry, to be merry, to smile, to talk..and it ended saying something like- the best man is the one who knows how to spend the right time to the fullest. Ayway, lately I’ve been thinking of what I’ve become for the last 9 months of staying here. I can still remember the first time of almost everything, the moments I felt lazy, sad, motivated. A year ago I remembered I was so motivated to the extent I’ll do anything, everything to stay active and not be another bummer. Thinking of it, makes me smile and just yesterday I thought..where’s that girl? Where’s that girl who’s so enthusiastic, ready to embark in a whole new adventure, is thrilled for what’s ahead of life. Somehow I’ve been influenced by the people I go to work with, about the shallow rants of life. But if you think of it..the way I see it now, my life is pretty much exciting! I think everyone’s life is exciting you just have to find your way through happiness and enjoy what you currently have, not look for something you don’t have or never had, because as God said, there’s a right time for everything. After my short time alone with myself I’ve decided to embark on another exciting journey. I’ve decided to live a life full of happiness and just live it to the fullest. Living a life to the fullest doesn’t mean, being a daredevil or do some crazy things. I just pointed it out because I remembered one of my workmate telling me that she had lived her life and she can die at the moment, she bungee jumped, smoked pot, got drunk til she can’t move a finger etc. She’s just 22 and that’s how she defines “I’ve lived my life!” I also had a chit chat with one girl who told me I should go to bars, live my life, get drunk..because that’s how she defines living a life. Each of us has our own definition of living. Some may say they’ve had sex with 50 different woman and that’s how he defines living. Well I say we choose the life we live and it all starts with the upbringing. How we choose life’s principles and stick to what we want to be. It might sound boring if one say that she had lived a life reading books, but if that’s what she loves to do, that’s the way she is, she’ll die full of wisdom and knowledge.

It all ends up with one thing, the important thing is that we are happy. :3 

It’s been awhile..echos echos. Usually naman ganyan start ng mga blogs na sasabihin na ngayon ka na lang uli nagpost. Okay yun na yung point ko. :))

Sabi nila practice makes perfect. Sa inaraw araw ba naman na kakalagay ko ng make up sa mukha ko di katagalan ako’y babansagan ng..Agatha The make up artist. Di mo rin masabi e minsan yung ikakasikat mo yung ginagawa mo araw araw. Tingnan mo na lang yung mga tindera ng baboy sa palengke. Sumikat sila at kilalang kilala na, may mga suki na. Kasi siyempre yun ginagawa nila araw araw. Dun sila nakilala. So san ba hahantong tong sinusulat mo? Ay wala lang topic ko ngayon make up e. gusto ko lang irelate sa tindera ng baboy para kunwari maka-masa ako ganun. :))

Kanina habang naghahanda sa trabaho. Tulad ng araw araw kong ginagawa buksan ang ilaw, tumingin sa salamin, iisipin, ito na naman..so ano na kulay lalagay mo sa mata mo? Gano kataray ang gusto mong kilay ngayon? Oo totoo kinakausap ko sarili ko parati kung anong klaseng personality ang gusto ko ipakita sa mga tao. Iba ibang look yun depende sa mood. Lahat naman ata tayo may ganung moments. Ngayon..napagdesisyonan ko ang “mataray na kontrabida look” gusto ko tong look na to pag nagtataraytarayan ako. Puros highlights at contour ang drama. Na-master ko na ang look na di mo na kailangan ngumiti pero mukhang nakangiti ka pa rin, kailangan mo lang magpout ng konti (konti lang sumobra ka na e) tapos medyo mag squint ka. Parang SMIZE ni Tyra, smiling with your eyes. Sa ganitong paraan di ka na mahihirapan mageffort sa pag ngiti. I tried this once during work, tinanong ng kasama ko if may sakit ba ko. Pero tulad nga ng sabi ko..practice makes perfection. Keep on smizing.

Madalas napapansin ko na tulala na lang ako. Yung tipong iinom ako ng tubig tas matutulala ako tas iisipin ko agad na dapat may gawin ako. Tas kukuha ako ng libro o kaya naman ng lapis o kaya kukuha ako ng brush tas lilinisin ko yung banyo. Araw araw ganun na lang, parang paulit ulit. Yun pa naman yung ayoko, yun bang buhay mo parang naka rewind and play lang, tas di mo pwede i-pause kasi di mo hawak yung oras. 

Araw araw iba ibang sitwasyon pero may isang general story, yung gigising ka magttrabaho, matutulog. O yung gigising ka, maglalaba, kakain, matutulog. Naisip ko nga na parang may kulang. May kulang pero di ko alam kung ano.

Minsan naiisip ko gusto ko maging Presidente ng Pilipinas..wala lang ng may maiba lang. Pero imagination lang naman yun, naiisip ko rin na maging isang Ambassadress ng mga puno, mga bata. Parang Angelina Jolie. Wala lang..trip ko lang isipin. Alam mo yung grand? Gusto ko Grand parati ang araw. Yung gigising ako na parang sobrang ganda ko lang, tapos masarap yung kinakain ko, masaya ako masaya lahat, parang yung lahat ng tao kakanta sa kalasada, yung may song and dance number. Yung tipong ito na yung huli kong araw sa mundo tapos gusto ko lahat masaya, kung may mapapasaya akong tao gusto ko Grand (okay Venus Raj term: Major) Yung Major saya! Wala lang..kasi feeling ko yun lang yung kulang yun nga lang siguro yung kulang..

Masaya naman ako ngayon e..di nga lang grand. :3